Well, in working my way through “The success principles” I am beginning to feel more and more capable, I am starting to firmly believe in myself and my abilities, I have had a lot happen in the last few weeks, I have had Identity fraud someone somehow managed to clone my debit card and use it to try and get £107 worth of things on it, and my bank were useless in trying to find out what was going on, the local police station said the amount was not high enough for them to look into it, and if it was not for Amazon being suitably efficient I would have had more pain from this episode. Fortuately Amazon found the error in one of their routine checks and they cancelled the account and the payment, and so my account was resumed to my full balance thankfully. I do admit to being slightly stressed out by all of this and wondering “Why me?” This is not the first lot of fraud that has happened on my bank account, I let my ego, my negative self get the better of me and I got angry. I regretted it soon after and managed to calm myself down and think positively. Such was my ability to focus that despite the bank stating they would NOT honour a cheque I had sent to my college for my next course, I actually looked online and found they had honoured it even though I was technically overdrawn at the time. I have so far managed to stay within my budget to a degree of 20% I have overspent but still managed to not completely loose it. I am starting to make a point of running my payment scenario in Money before I buy anything, to make sure I can afford it. And if I can’t afford it right away, I keep trying scenarios until I find either I can find a way and a time to buy it, or I can’t if I can’t then I don’t spend the money, and I am getting better at doing this. I am so thankful for that day last year that I found out about the Secret, I am manifesting more and more joy in my life, and on a scale of 1 – 10 in happiness most of the time I am quite happily on a 9-10 scale. I am slowly erasing the past, it does not matter, it is back there in the past, it has nothing whatsoever to do with my future unless I let it. And from now on I WONT LET IT rule my future. I am really moving forwards with my hypnotherapy, and I am managing to dispose of the negative voice inside of me. I am instead choosing to listen only to the kind quiet voice inside of me that believes in me, and knows I can achieve everything I set about to do. So much so that recently I have signed up for two more home study diploma’s as I am nearing completion of the 5 I started 5 years ago! In the last two months I have done more coursework with higher grades than I have achieved in the last 5 years. I am so proud of myself. I am also very proud of my ability to overcoem my fear of the dentist, to the oint I have had a root canal done without having to have sedation, and I recently was given a gold crown, I was so surpised that he had chosen to give me a gold crown instead of a white one, it made me feel special, and somehow made me feel so rich inside. I know it sounds stupid but to me it meant a lot. He is also referring me to a surgeon to have my jaw re-set this will mean that for the first time in 30 odd years I will have teeth that meet properly, and I will have a different face shape, I might actually be able to finally get veneers and implants done to replace my missing and damaged teeth, which will boost my self esteem so much. I feel at long last that I can achieve this, I really believe that my future is what I make of it, rather than what fate decides. I have a choice of what I want for my future and I am gradually overcoming my overwhelming fears that previously have severely hampered me in my future plans. I will soon be fully qualified as a counsellor, and Fertility therapist, and I am so looking forward to setting up my own therapy centre, I have found an office which literally jumped out at me whilst I was driving, things I would previously have ignored are now being noticed and I am starting to look into each and every opportunity that shows itself to me. And it feels fantastic! I really am looking forward to my new life.
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